Faith, Joy, hope♥

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I AM FORCED TO GO DOWN TO SAA COS OF M. :< I DONT WANT BABYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

I’m really happy that I’ve found someone who’s wilingly to be there for me all the time, who understands me, who make me feel that I can actually be me and not pretend to be someone else. Once I came upon this quote in a book and it says ” You need and deserve someone who loves you for who you are, not who you are pretending or trying to be.” & You are the only one who makes me feel this way. I don’t know where will this bring us to, don’t know how long will this last but I know I want it to be for a long time. To be practical, I can’t use the word forever cos there ain’t forever. You know what, there’s this feeling that I can’t explain in words. Sometimes when I just look at you for afar, my heart seems to skip a beat. Remember when I start to tear in front of you and said that I’m glad you came into my life and pick me up from wherever I’ve fallen? & tht I’ve got you to lean on? I meant every word I said. Thankyou Marc, for choosing me to be yours. I promise I will love you for a long time. I love you.

My tattoo is fucking itchy.
I am hungry.
Can’t wait for beeeeeeeeeeee to bring0 foooood for meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

The day which Ive been waiting for finally came.
The day where by I am all alone, for real.

I am home.
Joy can’t sleep.
She is trying to tempt me with her custard puff.
I am stressed.
My manager is working with me for two weeks and he caught me messaging on the selling floor.
I need and want more off days so that i cant spend time with my friends.
I just got inked two days back and it hurts.
I want a new piercing but I dont know where to get it.
I cant wait to get a new phone.
Joy is laughing to herself.
BECAUSE SHE PUT ALL HER PHOTOS IN MY WALLET.
She’s finally on her COMFY tatami. hahahahhaha.
Oh fuck my gastric’s back.
Joy’s asleep.

Bye

Hi world. Just came back from work and guess what, I am having two days off :D Partly because Jack gave me another extra day off on saturday since I told him I have an appointment with the tattoo artist at seven. I can’t wait seriously! Tomorrow I’ll be catching Transformers with my collegues( okay I know I am damn slow!!) after their work. teheheehehehehehe

I hope my brother will go to bed soon because I want to watch tvvvv :<

This is my bestest bestest bestest girlfriend and I love her alot. Arent you guys jealous :P She’s dying my hair nowwwww!! :D

As what Hansen said before, my life is like a drama, once again. This is the period whereby everything just crashes down on you. Ben, babygirl(things are fine now(: ) & work. Talking about work, some fucked up customer who is a fucking bitch decided to lodge a complaint against me because I walked away from her when she approched me for help when I fucking didnt?! I was busy serving another customer & I told her if it’s possible to ask my other collegue for help. I thought she would be nice enough to turn to Jack instead but what the fuck. When I came back for my smoke break, Jack told me she asked for my manager’s email and said she’ll lodge a complaint. Holy crap, what kind of stupid customer is that! Somewhat it’s my fault but can’t she let me off. Bitch.

Anyway now that I am all independent, without ben, I am still coping well. We’re still on talking terms and that’s fine with me. I am happy with this kind of life but I guess he isnt. My life is back on track, I am finally able to be myself, doing things that I love without considering about other’s feelings. I’m still clueless about giving him another chance, because at this point of time, I want things to stay as it is. & considering the fact that I couldnt trust him anymore & that my heart always seems to be somewhere else.. Well, it may be a blessing in disguise as what my girls say, so live with it.

Oh and Ive called hansen’s friend tattoo artist, Deon, and he’s an extremly nice dude over the phone. He offered to slot me in on friday, seven, and asked his other client to come another day! :D It’s not confirm yet though. I’ve decided on “faith” and I doubt I’ll ever regret. As for piercings, I am thinking whether I should get my wrist piercing done with suebaby on the 8th. Tongue piercings seems so common now zzzzz, I am changing my black stud to golden cos you practically see black studs everywhere..

Oh well, I am waiting for mel to be done with her school stuffs, and while waiting, I shall watch some tv!
<3

Jiahui,

I know how we both hurt last night and im sorry for minding your business too much these days. well. we fight we break up, we kiss we make up, and i believe after last night we’d both be stronger. you know all the text you sent last night meant so much to me? i rly hope you meant all that you said. and i believe our friendship will continue to stay strong and not fall apart. and please, believe all that im going to say now, yes, im typing it here because i cannot bring myself to tell you this face to face- i never want to lose you or have you drift away from me. although we’re living under the same roof its not easy to spend time with each other because our schedules are all different. but i still feel you everyday and night (okay my goosebumps are standing/erecting i should stop soon) and i want this to last a lifetime. i hope we’d continue to grow up together and when the time comes i hope we’d have a queen size coffin so we can lie in there forever and ever and ever together! okay maybe king size would be better, if melissa doesnt mind dying with us! but nick will definitely mind, so.. ah whatever., be back soon from work, hot stuff!

with love,

zhu zhe bao, joy (hahahaha!)

You fucking lied to me and you actually wanted to explain or pretended like I know nothing about it? Stop coming up with excuses to cover up all your shits because it aint working anymore. I met you few moment ago and I thought maybe you’d really change but for now, I believe whatever my friends are telling me. A leopard will never change it’s spots. Please learn and grow up. It time to get out of that world and enter whole new one. Thanks for teaching me a whole lot of things, am grateful. Good luck with your life ahead.
& No matter how hard it gets, I am sure, I will get through this.

This is way too much for me to take. I wanna leave, I need a break. Why does it seems to hard to deal with the pain even if you’re th one wanting to let go.

I’m at work and I am totally drained out. I’ve been here since 10.30am and I’ve got another…… four more hours to go.
I’m having mixed feeling, emotions or whatever it is since yesterday and I am really really really damn tired. I’ve been thinking about it since idk when. Part of me wants to let go, part of me wants to hang on. Time and time again, i let myself and others down. I’ve decided to take one step at a time. And now, I’ve reached a point whereby I couldn’t be bothered, any less. As I said before, ignorance is bliss. I really wish, I could be stronger.

Thanks babyjoy, really. I love you very much. Despite me disappointing you all the time, you still stand by me.

Alright, finally after so long, I’ve got the time to actually blog properly. Well, life’s been great so far. Basically it’s vry slack at work, enjoying every part of it except when there’s no customers. It’s really damn irritating cos there’s NOTHING to do but to fold and fold and fold clothes. Jack got me this checkered shirt which is meant for boys and I’m in love with it. I’m extremely happy about owning it, and I’m still eyeing on th wallet, refusing to accept the fact that it’s huge, bulky, and not for me kind of thing. All the new arrivals in th shop are so gorgeous and I’m gg to get them all in my hands!! :D

I’m off today and tomorrow, supposedly to work full and afternoon shift respectively, but Jack let me off since I told him that I’m having chalet l8r on. You may think that I’m crazy but I can’t wait sunday to come cos there’s work! I forgot to mention, my colleagues are very nice people. Definitely I enjoy my stay there. Considering whether I shld work full-time and when the fuck should I enroll myself in accounting school! :<

Oh well, it’ getting late, and I’m totally drained. Chalet tmrw till sat! Shall see you guys soon & will update again when I’ve got the time. Goodnight peeps(:

I am alone in the shop now. I’ve been pretty busy, caught up with work and friends. Amazingly I managed to get this far, meaning working for more than a week. HA-HA.

Got to run, customers are coming in and Jack’s prolly coming back very soon!

So, I’ve just gotten a job at United Colours Of Benetton, marina square. Starting on monday onwards. The question is, how long can I actually stick with this job?